Sitting in a very harsh cold condition. Finger tremblings and knees are knocking each others. Back at office was hot like hell and now cold like I am in the North Pole. Glancing around and I found a pretty nice gal sitting there, too bad, a nice handsome guy approaching her. Washing my eyes pretty well though. *LOL*

Cutting off the crap. Now I am going into a topsy turvy situation, at one point I was depressed and another point I was happy again. I do not know what to do with but just pretend there nothing happened. Shit drops on my path. *Sigh*

Work been busy and well but things are not getting any better back in Malacca (excluding my family). Many people come and go in my life and rather small potion of them stay along with me. To stay along with me is not any easy task but only for those people who have the same thinking and perception with me will last. For those red blooded soldier from the south have the same common thing with me, smoke? drink? talk crap? serious man talk?. Till now, the testimonial wrote by my pal, HG in Friendster resemble me perfectly. I am dealing with problem rather suck but handling others ratherly well to help them solve every single obstacle.

My life now rather black and white, not much color like the previous path of life I been thru. Shouting like a rocker, smoke like no tomorrow, drink like an alcoholic but now it turn to the opposite from what I been thru. Now I can't bring out the sickness of myself to the surface but to nail it down deep into my soul. How long can I stand this? I do not know...

I NEED A LIFE!! I do not know what is going with my life right now. Can't view myself in the next few years but I still have my financial and career goal to cling too. Can someone help me here? Anyone? I guess there will be no one but myself to change it.