Who can understand my situation now? I think no one can really feel the situation that I am currently in. Seems like I do not belong to anywhere till the end of this month. Working environment still not bad but till the clock strikes 4:30pm, my mind felt very tired of going back. Each time, how I wish I could go back home and straight away lie on the bed without any hestitation and with some music playing at the background. How relaxing it will be..

Back to reality, staying with my relatives though many said can save money and there is someone who can look after me. That is the advantage but there are more disadvantages.

Here are the disadvantages:-

a) No Privacy : I do not have my own space of privacy. I do not have a room of my own but to stay in a room that use for hair saloon. Even I need to do some study on my own, I do not have a proper table for that purpose. Sometimes I need to be on my own, alone for me to relax and some thinking too.

b) No Resting Place : As we all know that working is a very tiring thing and what we really wish is to have a place for us to feel home and relax. But for me, I do not feel that at all. When I am at home, I do not have for me to lie and relax for a moment. All I have is sitting on the sofa and sometimes sleep on it. Come to the worst, on the floor.

c) Too Crowded : As I stated earlier, my aunt is running a home-business as a hair dresser. She runs a hair saloon in a small room that I am sleeping every single night. Many people come and go into the house. Everyday, strangers walk in and out make me feel unsecure. Worst, the noise of kids crying and shouting. Make me feel uncomfortable.

d) Polluted Air : Every night I have to sleep in the room that use for saloon. The room full of hairs plus the smell of chemical that sometimes make me feel weirdo.

e) Rats : Rats are all over the place. Every night, without fail, it will appears not one but a few of them. Crawling and scratching the windows, sometimes they have their Rats Street Fight too.

Right now, comes to the worst, running a biscuit business at home. Baking and frying biscuits for the upcoming Chinese New Year event. The whole house is totally upside down with lots of biscuits and hampers stacking in the whole house. The house is hot and oily. Totally unbearable. It's been this way for the past 3weeks and I really have enough of it. Sometimes the stress I had come even worst when I at home. Every night I had a very late time to sleep and the room is so hot plus with the chemical smell really make me sick. Sleep on the lazy chair make me even more tired if I sleep on it longer. My neck and body are in strain and sometimes I have aches here and there. *Sigh*

Sometimes I tell myself to bear with it but the longer it goes on, I think I might not survive any longer as it is not a long term solution for my lodging.

At the end of this month, I am shifting out to a better place where I can proudly to say it is a place that I own though I just rent the room.

Can't wait for next week...

Cheers~