It's been a long time I did not brag about my own inner feeling in this blog. Most of the inner feeling throughout this year are simply gloomy. Some of it was a happy feeling and I really treasure the feeling of it.

It's been a long running period of time where things I would like to achieve or things I wanted to do seems come so hard for me. I am sick of it and sometimes feels like giving up the things I wanted. I do not blame God or anyone else but I just surrender myself to the faith. Sometimes things are just look easy to get but the process of getting it, is definately difficult. At the end of the day, the most important lesson that I learned is to appreciate what I had in my hand.

I taste bitterness and I grew up of it. My parents never fulfill my wishes with a smile but just nag and nag, sometimes offended my feelings too. I grew up this way and I am used the way of it. Used to get some obstructions while my mind think of the positive side of it. People that I meet usually said that I am an optimistic person where thinking positive the criteria they see. Actually thinking positive side sometimes just to comfort my mind where I had no one to comfort me.

Sometimes things are so near yet so far away from my reach, just like TV where things are within the reach but actually it is far away from us.

The way I get of this struggle, simple, think the positive way rather the negative way. Sometimes sacrifice need to be made just to get the best result that I want to have.

Till now....

Cheers~...