Yesterday just only came back from JB to attend funeral function for my aunty that just passed away 6 days ago. Occasion was very frantic and everyone in the family felt sorrow for her passing. For myself, I couldn't accept the fact that she passed away in such a way. Anyhow that is the fact that she is no longer with us physically but mentally she is here with us all the while.

Been travelling to 4 different states this past few days, from KL to NS then to Malacca and lastly to JB. Been a tiring and sad journey down to the south of the country. Perhaps my instinct always tells me the right thing to do. Before she draw her last breath at Nilai Cancer Institute, I was in KL and my heart told me to head back south to see her as her condition is not good. Firstly I feel a little bid uncomfortable in my heart and discomfort getting stronger and instantly head down to Nilai. When I reached she was struggling and quickly fetched my sister from INTI College. When I reached, she already gone forever. My heart perished and no words can described it.

I applied my annual leave and the next day I head back to Malacca and fetch my mum and my 3rd uncle's family down to JB. Everyone was there doing their part for the function. Everyone was chanting prayers to wish her well in the after life.

When I was in Nilai Cancer Institute, I seen her passing and I stand in the room together with the nurse and I look at her remain and my heart broke into pieces. What a painful way for her to depart from this world. I do not understand why God put her in such a situation as she is a good and pure person.

Everytime I prayed for at the funeral parlour, I will walked to her coffin and take a look at her lying beautifully in the coffin. I will never had another chance to called her, "Li Kim" (Hokkien: second aunt) anymore. Till now I blog, I also do not know what to say and how to express my feeling.

Anyway, I will not attend any function for the moment as I will mourn for her passing.

Till then...